Dreams of cars (and a caravan)
Life is exhausting! Working in a busy ED is tiring but okay , since we are all mostly working together, doing our best with whatever resources i have. Working with Jai, my son with special needs, feels harder. It often feels like my priorities are not shared by anyone else. So it is just up to me to keep doing whatever i can, and when it is not enough, just up to me to do more. Keeping my head above water, trying to get out with friends often, destress, reset. Trying to stay healthy, and to remain a good person.
I dreamt that i was in a car with my wife and some other people, not sure who. There was a fire coming towards us. Nobody else could start the car, so i got in, and got it started eventually. I drove fast and haphazardly onto a busy road, but didn't have a clear idea where i was going.
Another dream, a few weeks later.. I am with my wife in a caravan that seems disconnected from any motor vehicle. It is careening at speed through the streets, and it feels like we must crash. Neither of us knows how to get control, but I try. We have many bumps, but do not roll, and eventually the caravan stops. We are alive, but the caravan is a write off, and i think it's going to be a hard slog to get back home.
In my dreams, vehicles, usually cars, represent my direction (or lack of) in life. I have dreams of being in cars which cannot start or stall or go slow when i am in a rut. When i am making the decisions about my life or some aspect of it, I am at the wheel. When things feels out of control, the car or vehicle goes fast and feels like it will crash. I remember dreams of speeding down hills on narrow paths, feeling that i'm going to fall off the edge, but somehow staying on the path.
Who I'm with reflects my actual life. Often my wife. Recently, one about a close friend who picked me up in his BMW (in real life he doesn't own one). Another about a work friend who invited my into his go kart. When with my Mum, Dad and brother, the car always stalls and stops. Once it had no engine at all! In one of my favourite journey dreams, I am alone, walking up an unknown hill in a vibrant village. There are many paths, which seem enticing and promise adventure.
